When I discovered hypnosis for myself in 2011, it was while I was looking for a way to keep the weight off.
I’d gained a lot of weight after the birth of my first son in 2003 and was the heaviest and most unfit that I’d ever been.
In 2007, I decided that enough is enough
So I willed myself to lose the excess 10 kilos/20 pounds with the help of my iron discipline and a certain company’s weekly meetings and points system.
I remember the day I reached my goal weight and was called to go up in front of everyone to receive my gold-coloured keyring star (they’re so generous, haha!) to a round of applause.
I was so relieved that I’d achieved my goal weight and I was the happiest I had ever been in my body.
I had a flat stomach again, my arms were slim and my legs were more shapely and smoother than they’d ever been. I loved the look of my legs for the first time!
But I was also confused.
“What do I do now?” I asked the group leader gingerly. Surely I didn’t have to keep on counting points?
She assured me with a beaming smile that of
I was horrified!
If I hadn’t already developed an eating disorder from all the obsessing for the past 8 months, I was convinced that I’d soon have one if I carried on analysing, planning and weighing everything that went into my mouth!
So I went away from that last meeting with mixed feelings.
I decided to abandon counting calories. Instead, I utilised my new-found knowledge about healthy food options and portion sizes
And I went back to relying on my self-discipline, hoping for the best.
I maintained my weight more or less for a year and then, in January 2009, I became pregnant again with my second son.
This time, I didn’t wait very long after his birth (about a year) to try to get back down to my ideal weight.
I did enrol with the points peddlers again but my heart wasn’t in it this time, so I cancelled after a couple of meetings.
What was bothering me was the fact that, although I have the iron will of an ox in comparison to most people I know, how come I couldn’t keep the weight off?
Was it age? Or hormones? Or both?
Was I doomed to feel uncomfortable in my body for the rest of my life?
And why was it that, whenever I told myself that I wouldn’t eat chocolate anymore, I immediately reached for a bar?
Lots of people I knew had admitted defeat to their heavy and sagging bodies and had adjusted their expectations and dress style accordingly. Not to mention compromise their happiness, health and longevity.
But, always being one to rise to a challenge, dissatisfaction with my weight fired my resolve to find a way that worked long term for me.
And that’s when I discovered hypnosis.
To be continued next week
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Lots of love,